Wouldn’t you agree that it’s better to do something rather than nothing? And that it’s better to do something not-quite-perfectly rather than doing nothing?
I had nothing, I mean NOTHING for this art journal page in my Documented Life planner. Except for those words in the middle. They were already there when I put in all the fold-out pages back at the start of the year. How appropriate, because I had not a creative bone in my body on the day I completed this page! But as the words reminded me, if I did something (anything!) that would be better than doing a big fat nothing.
So out came the blue and white paints; no paintbrushes, I just smooshed the paint all over the page with my fingers, quickly and messily. I got out 2 of my hand-carved rubber stamps and stamped all over the painted area and called it ‘done’!
Sometimes, you will feel that you can’t face the blank page. That you’ve ‘got nothing’. That your creativity well has run dry. Sometimes the answer can be as simple as sticking in a quote, painting with your fingers and using a rubber stamp. Easy, and done!
This face collage page is an example of how sometimes, everything can just come together exactly right.
The page began when I used up some leftover acrylic paints on my palette one day so they wouldn’t go to waste. I used an old gift card to spread the paints all over the page. The paints were burnt sienna, titanium white and phthalo blue. They mixed together really nicely and reminded me of an old painted crumbling wall in a run-down area of a city.
This made me think of graffiti so I raided my stash of stuff that has been cut out of magazines and found the piece at the top of the page: “the writing’s on the wall” – perfect!
I was giving myself a hard time that day because my extreme politeness can really annoy me at times. Sometimes I’m in a situation talking to a person who is being rude or offensive or just plain saying something I disagree with, but my politeness filter takes over my brain and makes me agree with them / allow them to be rude to me / ignore their offensiveness. It drives me crazy and I end up getting really pissed off with myself for not saying what I really think. For not speaking my truth but going along with theirs.
Out came the magazine clippings stash again and bingo! “I’m so goddamn polite” was right there. I love it when a plan comes together
When you have a space to fill, some washi tape and a quote can be just the thing.
I liked this quote by Lucille Ball. I can remember watching ‘I Love Lucy’ when I was a little kid. I used my bargain bucket 99p alpha stamp set that I got from The Range as a little treat after my assessment for Asperger’s syndrome a few weeks ago.
P.S. The challenge for week 9 was to use something recycled, I think we can safely say I covered that with the magazine clippings and paint!
P.P.S I made a new header image for the website – do you like it? It uses my own collage art and my own handwriting. Let me know if you’d like a tutorial!
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I’ve felt really mentally blocked this week in terms of writing this blog post. I’ve tried to get it done all week and I just kept putting it off. Why? I’m wondering if it’s the inclusion of some pretty negative stuff on one of the pages shown below (blurred out for privacy). I do struggle with opening up when negative stuff is weighing heavily on my mind.
But why should the Negative Stuff block me when there is also a lot of Positive Stuff on these here pages? I don’t know. Constantly searching for answers, that’s me. A constant need to have things explained to me so that I ‘get it’. I always need to know the ‘why’. Apparently this is part of my having Aspergers.
What I know, intellectually, is that I don’t need to worry about the why. It really doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things. Accept that the Negative Stuff makes me feel like I have writer’s block or something, and then move on.
But in practice, it’s not that easy. I dwell on things. This block is a problem that must be solved somehow. And I’ll keep thinking about it until I figure it out. And that causes stress. Urgh.
I don’t often write about things as personal to me as this. Maybe THAT’S the key to unblocking. Because LOOK! I have written all these words today on a day when I was feeling so blocked!
This! ^^ This is also key, I think.
People I know in Real Life read this blog, people who I do NOT open up to on an emotional level. Maybe I’m scared to show who I really am, because those people have certain expectations of me, they think I am something that I’m not. They want me to be something that I don’t want to be.
This is my new declaration:
I am me. I am happy being me. I am happy with my life. I am happy with things as they are. I can’t be who you want me to be. I can’t pretend anymore. Pretending; being who you expect me to be; it’s too emotionally draining for me. Accept me as I really am. If you can’t do that, then we have to part ways.
Putting this picture here makes it look kind of like the previous paragraph was written about my husband.
My husband is the most supportive person I’ve ever known. He is my rock, my sounding board, my comfort, my safe place, my happy.
Well, would you look at that. A big old post written when I didn’t think I could. A bit rambling, but a post nonetheless. Do you ever feel like stuff is blocking you & your creativity?
An aside (or 3):
The heart image you see in the 2nd picture that says ‘love you’ was a freebie from Christy Tomlinson.
The face image in the 1st and last pictures was part of a digital kit I paid for from Art To The 5th. I altered the face’s features a bit.
The Documented Life Project challenge this week was to use an extra flap, shown in pictures 2 and 4.
I’m running so late posting this, it’ll be time for me to post my week 8 pics soon! Ah well, it’s getting done now, better late than never.
First up is my week 7 calendar page:
The background is one of my hand-carved rubber stamps in a mustard-yellow ink. To make sure my writing showed up well, I rubbed some white acrylic paint over the spaces where I wanted to write. My favourite part of this page is the bottom-right corner: “Eat breakfast every day” and then I only ate breakfast on Wednesday. I don’t know what it is about Wednesdays but that happened in week 8 too
Next is the outer side of the fold-out on the opposite page:
Initially this page was covered in scribbles and doodles but I covered it with DecoArt Americana acrylic paints in Alizarin Crimson and Sea Glass, outlined with a white paint pen. I pulled the heart and the ‘wife’ word off of the Valentine’s card my husband gave me It’s OK, he said I could, and I did leave the card intact for at least 48 hours!
When I lift up the left side of that fold-out, there’s a page where the top half is full of personal journaling, so I decided not to photograph that. But at the bottom of the journaling page I doodled some houses and coloured them with Derwent Inktense pencils and a waterbrush. Very childish-looking, yes. I love them
Opposite that page (on the back of the Wife page), I did the Documented Life weekly challenge, which was to draw one shape, repeat and colour:
First of all I needed to get rid of the empty white page so I scraped a load of acrylic paints on there using an old store card. I used blues, purples and white and got some nice effects. I drew the circles onto some scraps of Gelli prints that I hadn’t used up yet and cut them out, layering them as I glued them onto the page. I outlined some circles with a black ‘Be Green’ Pilot pen, and others with a white Uni Posca paint pen and then used both pens to doodle a border around the page.
And that’s it for week 7, I’ll stop here or this will never get posted!
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